LASIK: Thinks and Feels Edition

So I was going to write about my whole LASIK experience in detail, including the nauseating fact that my doctor used what he called a “cornea spatula” on my eyes, but anyone could read about the gross details on some LASIK site. This blog is about THINKS AND FEELS. But I will say this: the whole procedure only took about 20 minutes and it has completely changed my life. I don’t regret getting the surgery and my doctor at the Cleveland Clinic was amazing.

I’ve had glasses since I was 8 years old. I remember not being able to see the blackboard from the back of my classroom. My teacher asked me to read the morning announcements she had written on the board and I couldn’t see well enough to read them. I remember standing at the back of the line in the nurse’s office while my classmates dutifully read letters I couldn’t see off the eye cart. I tried SO HARD to memorize the order of the letters, but when it was my turn, I just burst into tears and admitted I couldn’t see. I got these hideous clear pink plastic frames that some hipster would probably love to wear right now.

I tried contacts for about a year in high school because my grandma insisted that I would look “so much prettier” without glasses. I had to get hard contacts because my vision was so bad. I did wear them for long because they were a pain in the ass, but I do think they helped stabilize my vision, which is why my ophthalmologist wanted me to try contacts. Even then, I had been wearing glasses for so long that I felt naked without them.

3 days post-surgery. The blood blob is completely gone now.

3 days post-surgery. The blood blob is completely gone now.

Truth be told, I’ve always felt like I looked really good in glasses and that they suited my face. When I was thinking about LASIK, I assumed that my vision wouldn’t be able to be 100% corrected and that I would still need to wear glasses. When my doctor assured me that he could give me perfect vision, I was shocked. I wasn’t really prepared to lose my glasses. In fact, I actually bought a pair of non-prescription glasses just in case I needed the security blanket.

I feel like I look like a completely different person now. My glasses had pretty much become a part of my face, and, even almost a month later, it’s weird for me to look in the mirror and see my naked face. When I had my glasses off, my vision was so bad that I couldn’t actually see my face clearly. I’m still learning to accept my glasses-less face as just as attractive as my face with glasses. For awhile after my surgery, I kept asking my boyfriend if he thought I was still attractive, which was ridiculous. But we met on a dating site and one of the reasons he said he messaged me was because he thought I was cute. So I worried that he didn’t think I was as cute without glasses. Like I said, ridiculous.

Response from other people have been mostly positive. I’ve gotten a lot of compliments at work and people telling me how pretty I look. But then I get all weird about it and think that means they didn’t find me pretty BEFORE surgery. Honestly, though, how other people feel about me isn’t all that important. I’m super-sensitive about this because I tied my glasses into my attractiveness for so long. Being without them makes me feel more vulnerable. It also doesn’t help that two people have told me that I looked better in glasses. Both were men and I think it was because I ruined their “sexy librarian” stereotype image. But still. That was kind of hard to swallow.

While coming to terms with my new appearance, I’ve been enjoying my glasses-free existence. I’ve purchased sunglasses that don’t cost over $200! Of course, those $10 sunglasses broke off my face while I was driving the other day, but that’s neither here nor there. I was able to drive the day after my operation. Driving at night is not the best. I see halos around headlights and stop lights, which can make seeing kind of difficult. I drove on the highway for the first time over the weekend and it wasn’t as bad as I feared. My doctor assures me that my night vision will improve, so I just have to be patient. You all know how good at I am at being patient. :P

Bottom line? I would absolutely do this all over again. It was worth every penny I paid (and it cost A LOT of pennies). My quality of life has increased dramatically. I mean, I can see my feet in the shower! Of course, that also means that I really know when it’s time to clean the tub. If anyone wants to know the gory details of my surgery, I’d be happy to share. I just didn’t want to gross out any uninterested parties. If you’ve been thinking about LASIK, DO IT. Schedule a consultation appointment. I regret not seriously considering the procedure sooner, though, this was the first time in my life that I could’ve paid for it.

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